Moody….
I wonder who am I and how am I as a person. I became moody and easily get depressed. I wish I were not like that. I can be very jealous sometimes. I like the feeling of people care about us. I began tired of my loneliness and how good if somebody is there for me. At least I can have the one to share with me… I don’t need to do things alone and I don’t need to keep things in heart. These days, when night comes I got very sad and couldn’t sleep well. My ‘ kai mui ‘ told me that if I’m sad or lonely I can give them a call or ask them out. But I told her… at the end we still have to be alone… and when this happens, I started to miss my family and I would wish to let everthing down here and go back to start my life once again. I don’t know which one should I choose and what can I do. I have this thought, may b’cos I need someone to rely on and I don’t wan to be this tired by my own. I’m stupid and useless rite? When can I start doing things better and handle things well. I’m so empty and I am so aimless.. this is what someone told me. I can’t be like this anymore… But u know or not I can no longer be strong anymore. I drop my tears easily.. which is not I wan. What happened to me and why is this happen? I’m really weak and tired…… I will try to be strong. But I scare……..
